What I am feeling now.

The thought of being a bad son, bad is always there. Today I feel it again. Am I a burden to others? Personally I think I am. People may not know. I am the only normal academic student in my family. You may not think is anything wrong. But both my sisters are really very smart. They really are. Never fail, they do well go in to express save 1 year of school fee. after went to JC save another year of school fee, I went to Poly and their school fee is more expansive than JC. I am very proud of them. I always very proud to tell my friends that I have two smart and awesome sisters. without fail. As they really are. Some times, I thinking if their friends ask them about their brother, that is me. What will they reply? Cause I think I have nothing good. Really!!! Even I go poly need other people help. My parent always ask me to study hard for my future. But the reason I study so hard cause I want them to have a happy life. I dont really care how people look at me. even if I have to spend lesser time to play jut to study.
Sometimes I want to distress I also must think should I. Maybe some of it cause I need to spend money. and I don't really come for a rich family. So whatever I able to save up I will try my very best to save up.

I just want to be a good son and brother to my family members. sadly to say. I am really just a burden if you all know me. Sometimes I wish if they dont have me they will be abit happier?