Lesson Learn

In the world, you cannot rely on anyone. Inclding the one you really love or trust. Because you never know one day they will just change their heart and turn against you. You only can rely on yourself and God. Cause no one cares about you as much as yourself.

I totally give up.

maybe

Maybe I just don't love her enough.
Maybe I am not good enough.
Maybe I am not the one.
Maybe I am on the fault.
Maybe we should not be together.
Maybe I should let her go...

What should I do now?

Past 2 days, the same girl have make my heart drop to the bottomless pit. I don't know what I want now and I do not know what should I do. Is my thinking to immature? Or I give her too much freedom? 
Sometimes the things she wanted I unable to give her. Isit her expectation is too high? Or just I unable to reach her standard?
I keep thinking what will be the best solution for the two of us. But I unable to think of anything.
This two days my head keep thinking about the negative stuff. I really on the verge want to break up with her. If I can't help her and be there for her, let other guy do it. Cause if I can't do it, let other do it. That's the best solution I can think of. I am just holding myself back cause I know if I leave her now, she will not make it for her exchange and she will continue to do the wrong think. I guess I must wait till she come back so that at least she got her family to take care of. 
My heart really die.