Satisfy in the presence of God.

I am not satisfy with just wist deep, where everybody at. I want more of you. God, if you want me to go even deeper, God call me now and I will go. I want to be fully submerged in your presence. You alone I will follow. Cause I want my life to walk on righteousness and not what is popular. God, how long I need to be hunger for then you will bless me! I want more of You! I want to love my life daily with you! For you alone I love! For you alone I long for! God, touch me! God be my guild! I really longing for more of you! I willing to put other things aside just to be in your presence! Show me your glory!

Encounter 2017 camp day 1.

Today camp is good. Today have a great revelation from God. 

A dead land with no living things on it. However, when God touches it, the land start fill with life. Living animal start running on the land. Plants and trees start growing. Not just God can do it, we can donor as well. Because God is with us. God have giving us his power to do it.

I know that wherever God have sent me, I will bring revival into the land. Even nobody can see good in this land, it will come to life again. Amen.

我不配

In a relationship at least one need to give in. I been giving in and change because of her. I love her. But everytime she expect more and more and unreasonable. Whatever she like I must do. Do I even ask anything from her? I need peace did she give me? I need my alone time did she give me? From the day I be with her I already no freedom. Did I ask for anything? Gues what she say, She feel that I don't love her. I just feel comfortable with her thats all. How to find someone you comfortable with? She like to think a lot I also cannot stop. She always say whatever she thinks is correct, I also cannot do anything. Maybe she found a guy that cannot love her enough. I love her, but not as much as she expected. Isit time to let go and let her find the person that she deserve more? Hope she can find a guy that love her more than I do. I willing to let go if she want to go.

Stress and fear is creeping in

Days go by and exam days are getting closer. got back most of the test result. Bad report upon bad report. Some days, I thinking how can I survive in the long run. By I always believe God have a plan and a purpose for me and I know I can pull through it with God. I am living with his strengh and not mine.

God have you forgotten me? God I am here. God please help me! God can you hear my cry?


Thinking why did I put myself in these situation. But I know is God plans and I always trusting Him, He have not forsacken me. He is working on me. You will be the centre in everything I have.

I am just tired and burn out.

Currently enrolling in NTU Mechanical Engineering is something I look forward before I enrolling. However the day when the school start. my worst nightmare have just began. Work load keep adding and the teaching style does not fit me as well. I feel that this place is not belowing to me.

I thought I have found my support in my life. However, I feel that I am the want keep supporting and get nothing in return. Just feel that I can't give her what she wants and she just can't give me what I want. I know she loves me. I love her to. However, we are just different. I always wanted to be myself. However, in a relationship only one can be themselves. I decided let her be. I will change cause of her. I willing to do it. Cause I know she is not willing if I be myself. I always wanted to be myself have my own opinion, but alwas end up with angier all the time. She wants people to listen to her, but she doesn't want to listen to others. In her eyes, is there others? or is it the world just revolve around her?

If one day she decided to leave me, will I willing to let her go? Am I in a wrong relationship?

GOD OF MY FOREVER (Lyrical Video)

This song never fail to touch my heart.

Everything I do is what the song have said.

The reason I stay, the reason I can pull through.

No matter how people see me or treat me, I will always still love God and his people.

People may not agree or some may come againest me. Cause it doesn't matter to me at all.

All it's matter is at the end of the day God you will say "well done my great and faithful survent."



God, I have given my youth. You called me and took me over.

Your love have seen me through. Your grace had brought me where I am today.

I lay down on your altar, tell the world the what you had done for me.