The Point Of View From Both Side

Different between Girl and guy is we do not know what other party is thinking and we always misunderstood. We tent to always think we know what is the other party think as well.


He: Today I found out that, the more I talk the more up set and angry she gets. So I learn to keep my mouth shut. 
She: I don't want to hear the truth!!! I just want to hear the correct answer!! Can't he just make me feel happy.

He: Should I choose to go the one that is more important or should I go the one that I have agree to earlier on?
She: Why He keep break promise. Always forget our appointment. So am i wrong now?


So we need to get to know each other better and understand one another more.
Put down your ego and talk about it.
Some times the outcome may come out the way not you expected it.

What I am feeling now.

The thought of being a bad son, bad is always there. Today I feel it again. Am I a burden to others? Personally I think I am. People may not know. I am the only normal academic student in my family. You may not think is anything wrong. But both my sisters are really very smart. They really are. Never fail, they do well go in to express save 1 year of school fee. after went to JC save another year of school fee, I went to Poly and their school fee is more expansive than JC. I am very proud of them. I always very proud to tell my friends that I have two smart and awesome sisters. without fail. As they really are. Some times, I thinking if their friends ask them about their brother, that is me. What will they reply? Cause I think I have nothing good. Really!!! Even I go poly need other people help. My parent always ask me to study hard for my future. But the reason I study so hard cause I want them to have a happy life. I dont really care how people look at me. even if I have to spend lesser time to play jut to study.
Sometimes I want to distress I also must think should I. Maybe some of it cause I need to spend money. and I don't really come for a rich family. So whatever I able to save up I will try my very best to save up.

I just want to be a good son and brother to my family members. sadly to say. I am really just a burden if you all know me. Sometimes I wish if they dont have me they will be abit happier?

I did it again.

Nothing feel this bad when you make your love one sad. What can i say. I make my girl sad again. She keep saying that I am good enough for her but I know myself I am not good enough. So funny, by typing this down, my tears just start to flow. Let's continue. I always want my girl to be the happiest girl in the world, I believe all the guys want their girl to be as well. Sadly I can't. I am a very perfect guy that is imperfect. Can't provide my girl what she want. Suddenly find out that for a guy to find a girlfriend you need to have all this.

No 1.

1. Cash
2. Car
3. Time
4. Patient
5. Willingness
6. Good looking
7. Do what she want you to do

A perfect boyfriend must be like this rainbow. Colourful. As i mention, I am a imperfect guy cause I did not hit a single criterial.

Sometimes, I wish

1) I got CASH so that I can buy you what you like.

2) I got Car so that I can find you all the time and you don't need to fight with your parent with this topic.

3) I got TIME for you whenever you need me.

4) I got PATIENT to listen to you so that we don't always fight.

5) I more WILLING to go for the extra mile for you.

6) I wish... I am happy with my LOOKS.

7) Be the MAN that she wants.


She always say all these doesn't matter to her. But I feel if I have all the above isit will be better for both of us?

But I still thank God for who I am today. For now, I just need God to be at the center of my heart. Love really hurt. What a 2014.

Now this song is best to describe me.

The one that going walk with me till the end of the world

Been two weeks with my baby girl. This two weeks is never easy for us. However, we go through it and still standing strong. 

I am really happy that i found this girl. She is a girl that all guys wanted. words can't describe how grateful I am. 

All i want from this girl is she can be happy with me. If I can, I want to provide her all that she want from me even my time. 

In the future, let us fall in love with one another more and more. 

Love you.

How can I be BETTER?

I feel super worry for my girl today. She is so sad and disappointed, but i can't do anything. What I am doing now is just looking at her get hurt. Think of it, if it was other guy with her, the guy will know what to do to encourage her. I know i should not say that but this is what I feeling right now. I know what should need the must is a listening ear, thank God I am quite good at it. Hope after today she will feel better. Feel like hugging her and tell her how much I love her.

Today spend my whole day studying.. What a tiring and a boring day for me. But I have to hold on cause I want to score well.. I want to be the head and salt of the earth light of the world. Cause God say I will be and faith without work is dead.. Therefore I am working hard. Haha.. Wish I never let God down. :) study till 5am and went running after that.. Think a lot of things. Wish i can be a bettet person after all the prayer.. Haha.. After my run I don't feel tired anymore however I feel warm up for a greater challenge. :) think I ready to battle for God. :) actually want to meet Seow ting and fellowship with her. But in the end nv.. Cause she went to find refreshment. So end up I meet up with ting huan and she's so awesome : ) Haha. Think I really have no spiritual leader to look to so think this blog will be my listening ear!! Muhaha.. Ok.. Think got to sleep Tmr got cg. Night sweet dream and love you guys out there!! -.- lame.

Problems

Whao0o.. Very long never blog already. Think i really have no one look to that why type it over here. Really been a tiring day for me this week. Everyday study and drama. I really want to do well in everything i do. But i cannot multi-task. God you know i already need your strength and wisdom to guild me through. Without you I really don't know how bad I can do and how horrible i am. Sometimes I really think its not my fault and i don't want to fight or quarrel with people. Cause i don't want to make things worst and I know end up is I wrong. Every times  I got problem AMBER TAN XIAO FEN will be there for me. Now, you are not here with me, there is no want i can really trust and rely on. Do you know every times i miss you or think of you, I will go the your Facebook and look through all your picture. And all, i cannot hold my tears and cry. I really don't know why but tears just flow out of my eyes. I cannot stop them whenever i think of you. Even now, i writing this post, i also crying and typing. But i know, you go indo is for good. they really need you there and I believe you will do greater things there. But you know my heart I want you to stay. Had to stop here. If not i want cry more...